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God, I really love everything about video games. I was just thinking the past few days how much I really do want to make this my career, because I think they're so amazing. I get interested in the characters' stories, I enjoy stupid little things like collecting and challenges that involve solving the game "100%," I have video game music on my iPod (I hope to get more), and I will only get a strategy guide if it has a relatively good sized portion of game art/renders to oogle over. I was honestly upset when I looked everywhere online for the artwork from the Batman Arkham Asylum "Waynetech" upgrades and I couldn't find any. I need to look at the collector's edition strategy guide, I can only hope I'll find it somewhere, or else I'll be forced to take pictures of my television screen once I get that game. :P

I want to be a part of other people's ideas for games and I want to bring some of my ideas to life. The sad thing is, they have SO much potential and people see them as a waste of time, stupid mindless addictions comparative to cocaine for kids, who some people see as the only people who should play video games. And then there are games that do nothing but reinforce these ideas with unintelligent storylines and mindless violence. A video game can be taken just as seriously as any other entertainment like movies or literature. There's also the fascinating aspect of being the person going through these adventures, and yet seeing them as a seperate character from yourself. And more games now have a kind of "choose your own adventure" aspect, which I've always been interested in experimenting in. How do your choices impact the final outcome? What really IS on that second path, and which one will you take?

There have been a few games that have honestly inspired me, but many people just think I'm crazy, haha. I guess I'll just have to prove people wrong one day. I want to make games that showcase a console's power and potential (especially the Wii), games with storylines that people will remember, games that kids can enjoy yet not be treated like idiots who only deserve flashing colors and juvenile humor, and I want to break the racial/gender/sexuality barriers and stereotypes.

In preparation of moving to Portland, I have had the strangest urge not only to buy furniture, but to BUILD it. I am totally going to make this bookshelf. Yes.

http://www.instructables.com/id/60-minute-bookcase/

I'll probably end up cutting off a finger... But as long as it's on my left hand, it's all cool.

So I'm a slave to work and school, but it's kind of nice to have something distracting me. I just splurged a large amount of money on video games. But in my defense, they were used, so they're cheaper, and it was totally worth it. It really cheered me up and inspired me. I mean, I got a "game" that's pretty much a handheld cookbook! ♥ And a game about lawyers. I'm such a geek.

So I'm really excited to be going to school soon for what I'm actually passionate about. I realized that so many people either have no passion, or they aren't willing to follow it. It's one thing when people CAN'T at the moment. But to not even bother going for it? My mom spent several years as a dog trainer, and no one ever thought she could get into physics and engineering, which is what she loved, but she went back to school and is now working with lasers and shit. It was later than she would have liked, but better later than never. Ugh, it's probably pretentious, but when I ask people why they're majoring in whatever it is, and they say, "well, it's easy" or "it'll get me money" or "I don't really know" or "my mom wants me to" and they have no plans to go back to something later, I lose some respect for them. It's just giving up and taking the easy way.

I got the YogoBerry job! I start Sunday afternoonnnn oh my god. I've got to get a food handler's card which sucks, but I'll be cleaning until then (still got to get it soon) and I've got to buy some nicer jeans and white shirts. T-shirts or button-ups, I'm not sure yet?

Yay for my grandma for telling me about the opening.

So last night I dreamt that me and Locke from Lost discovered that my dad's house was like an underwater cave that Bjork hung out in because she was some kind of alienish sea creature that migrated in and out of the ocean to stay on the surface in the fall time. o_O;; And apparently we learned that her songs hinted at it somehow.

Then, the dream switched to me being at CHS/UTEP (because they were somehow right next to each other, which would be freaking convenient in real life) and basically Godzilla was attacking the city and was really nearby. So I was running around with Sammy trying to contact my friends and family (my mom didn't believe me and our phone connection was really crappy) and for some reason there was like a Japanese convention in town or something. So I was trying to help them because they were all scared and their kids were seperating from them. Luckily my grandpa was there and he helped translate a little bit of Japanese for me to get the Japanese people to stay in a building while I ran off to find other people. Some guy showed up and told me that he was told to help me specifically find Luis. And there were people trying to drive out of town on the highway nearby and I watched a chick almost surfing on a car as it drove away. And for a short period of time Harley Quinn and the Joker from Batman were there, because they wanted to stop the Godzilla thing with a robotic dinosaur of their own.

What the FUCK. But it was fun.

So what's up with Heath Ledger dying?!! Jeez! :( I mean, I wasn't a fan or anything, but I always heard about him because he was pretty popular, especially after Brokeback Mountain... All of these celebrity deaths lately are kinda creepy, and they're just really sad. What just freaked me out about Ledger's death the most was I was trying to remember why he sounded so familiar lately besides my previous knowledge of him, and then it kind of hit: he's gonna be the new Joker and I was just watching the trailers for the new Batman and getting really excited about how he was going to portray him!! Kinda crazy, dudes.

I'm kind of looking forward to New Years, but I'm a bit sad because I liked this year for the most part. I think it's kind of dumb to be sad for a thing like that, but I guess it's more like nostalgic? Is that even spelt right? Eh, oh well. But next year I'll definitely work harder, I slacked off a lot... And I'm feeling as though what I'm writing is coming out in the style of the manga I was just reading again, which is irritating. >_<

I hope this year I get back into the feel for drawing ALL of the way.. I think I'm almost there, but I've been saying that a lot. But all I have to show for it is a lot of sketches on homework. I think I'll use them as experiments for computer coloring..

And now I can watch a lot more anime and read more manga because I can keep track of them! I'm happy about that. It turns out there was a lot more I wanted to see than I thought... I have a lot of work to do.

So yeah, just updating because I felt like it, I didn't really do much but ramble...

Today I have a shitload of homework, a lot of which I need the internet for. But what was somewhat interesting (though not at the time) was when my internet stopped working because my stepdad kicked the cord out of the little box thingy, (though I didn't know that at the time) I remembered that one of the homeworks that I needed to access very badly was a Powerpoint I'm working on that addresses the topic "Are we too dependent on technology?"

Ha ha. Ha.

Welcome back to El Paso JC!! ♥

Ugh, I might have to drive my sister to the vet to get that rat put down today or tomorrow.. god, wtf. And I'm behind in a lot of stuff. I need to email Mrs. O, draw my mom's motorcycle, and just draw in general. Someone give me something interesting to draw!!

And I smell like wasp poison. why aren't they dead yet?? Seriously.

Pixar is genius. Especially Brad Bird, who directed my two favorite Pixar films so far: Ratatouille and The Incredibles. God, I love them so much, I need to get both on DVD.

I can't believe how many people were so unimpressed by Ratatouille!! It was gorgeous and amazing. So many people thought it was boring, and said their little kids were bored too. They apparently expected constant "funny" parts and couldn't handle actual story. Fuck 'em, they can stick to their Surf's Up and Shrek 3. Bird has even said he doesn't want animation to be seen as something that will only appeal to children, which is a point of view already taken by most of the rest of the world.

What happened to intelligent family movies??

I forgot how awesome this song was, thanks again JC for showing it to me!

( Thou shalt... )

http://www.myspace.com/lesacvspip

Oh yeah, I graduated from high school. And I'm gonna buy Guitar Hero II. I need to get a job too.

I finally got to going through the prom pics Adrian took, I still need to see how Sam's came out. I went through them with a bit of Photoshopping, but hopefully it's not TOO obvious.

( I hate camera flashes.. they're irritating to work with. )

I saw this thingy on some journal I was randomly browsing. I haven't done one in a while, and they're kinda fun, so yeah.

(  'A' is for 'aaaaaaaaahhhhhhsdfkjsadfkjefs' )

I wanna be a stereotypical Japanese gangster girl. ♥

This is one of the many reasons why Alanis Morissette is so FUCKING HARDCORE.

I haven't done this in a while, but it's a good excuse to use my Photobucket for something worthwhile besides icons, no? So this time it has pictures, unlike the version I did about a year or so ago. ♥

( If I could choose my teachers... )

OMG GUYS IT'S SNOWING.

♥ ♥ ♥

As far as I can tell, I've cleaned my journal up a bit, made some of it private, some friends only, some public, etc. The reason is mostly because I'm thinking about asking my step-dad if he'd be willing to get me a paid subscription. (mainly for icons) but telling him would mean he'd know my journal existed, and he'd probably tell my mom, and although it's not like I write really private things, I'd still like it to be private-ish.

But I was thinking of adding a friends-only banner, but I'm not sure how to do that. I guess I'll try to figure it out.

In other news I got my SAT scores back.. I think I'm going to retake it though, my Writing and Math sucked, and I'm fairly confident I can score high again in my English.

EIGHT AND A HALF MORE DAYS OF SCHOOL!!

Damn I need to make presents.

Found this at some random site...

( You're a 90s kid if... )